im lazy to post all pics here.i'll post them on fb..
duit raye is getting lesser.damn.but dun wurry,its only 2 days of raye.still have 28 more days.

anyways i miss my grandfather.its sad not to have him around anymore for raye:(.
sometimes i'll cry at night when i think of him.recently i dreamt of him.didnt tell anyone about this.he seems to be strong and healthy cos he can walk like a normal young man.i hope he is happy..

and ive been crying alot this days.it sucks the fact that im crying over somethings which isnt worth crying for.i waited.yet nothing came.
i just feel so sad n despair tt things go this way.cos of just one silly mistake which i don even mean.was so angry n i talked shit.
i dunnoe whats this.r u trying to punish me or what?.or maybe god is.i feel hurt n pain for too long.i want to feel happy n normal again.where can i just find it..WHERE?? i don wan cry anymore. im tired of crying. i think this tears are more den enough for u.cos i know i wont get the same amount from u..
this sucks big time.i swear.
i wanna travel around the world and heal.i cant wait to laugh at myself one fine day for being so foolish. and i will find someone who can make me smile happy again.someone else who will treat me like im his everything till we turn grey n old.someone who will put up to my nonsense behaviour and have patience with me.haiz.
can tat day come faster.?
i want get out from this emotional turmoil real quick:'(.

fcuk heartbreaks.
fcuk crying in the wee hours when im suppose to sleep.