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Profile. Hi I'm Lina, 22 years old. I love adventure and awesome jackets. I love my strawberries. Likes and interests. Like i said,i love adventure.Would love to see the whole universe if God permits me. Im a simple girl. Simple sense of style and choose to live in a simple life. Stalk me. email / facebook / tumblr / blogskins / twitter /

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.


Ooh don't misunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
I dont know why...... why
................................................................................................................................

Lets just put things behind us. I never thought i would be in love like this with a guy. He made me love so hard,and cry so hard..
Yes,its a long rs. Me too,if i have the chances to turn back time,there will be so many times i want to be at. Just the two of us.Me and You.
Let us learn from mistakes.
This is life.
Somehow ur msges makes me feel better..

Take care dearest harris.


ily.


work was cock up today......malas aku nak bercerite la.
and at last ive ended school.YAY YAY.YAY YAY. fuck gg to skul at 8 anymore.HA HA.
so im just waiting for my diplomaa and find a job.i hope i fucking get my dream job la.if Not...HAIZ.fml...i will cry even harder den before.

anws

i dunnoe wt im feeling right now.i think i am beginning to try to forget.i know,its seems to take forever,but at least i know im trying..and im moving so super slowly.
cos its not easy.
it will take plenty of time for me.
And im happy when i woke up in the morn.cos i didnt cry the night before..hee.

gd night.

I feel nervous for tomorrow's final presentation.gosh.

Well,today wasnt really a good day for me.Pagi2 mak aku da memekak.ZZZZ.kalakan pompan nak bersalin....lols.okay maybe not that bad.BUT STILL. dampen my whole mood for effing school.

my sister want to watch my name is khan w/o me tonight.BASKET..dunnoe how to wait for me sia.
i got skul tomoro!:(:(.

oh anws,i just feel like doing a happy post..

yesterday while working, there were 2 female customers who came.and oh my god.they are ORANGE in colour. they are so overtan and they looked super scary lahhh..eeekk.they are so obsessed with tanning i think. seram siut.
and hisham came by to see me.Hello:) but sorry dude,i have to rush to catch my movie.maybe we will meet up soon..
and Matin bought for me ben n jerry's ice cream. aawww.so sweet.lols.thanks btw:)
hmmm wt else wt else...
oh.people ,don watch Blood Pledge cos its such and illogical movie.hahaha.maybe can try 9 temples instead.i still want to watch that show lor.maybe i shall watch it with my sister.

and anws,im missing an old friend.
but i miss him much more:(.

im feeling so down right now.
My mom already spoilt my effing day early in the morning..

just go away.

here i go again..
just when i tot things seems better.
things just pulls me down right under again.

how i wish i know how youve been doing.
just to hear u again.even if its just a moment.
it somehow will give me a peace of my mind..

why is it so hard for me.
and when i says hard,i really mean Hard.
my heart is just being so stubborn.
cos it still belongs to u..

i don wanna cry anymore.its really exhausting.but i just cant help it:'(
fml.



Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku…
...........................................................................

Im graduating soon.I will miss school.
Cos its where we met..
i dunnoe why.but i still cry so hard when i think of u.
if painkillers work for heart ache..i think i will die of over dosage.seriously.

22 days passed.but it just feels like yesterday.

i cant help myself. i miss you like fuck.
i miss texting u.i miss calling u.i miss giving u a wake up call.i miss the 852 ride to ur place.i miss watching movies with u.i miss sharing food with u. i miss playing forfeit games with u.i miss being in ur arms.i miss ur smile.i miss ur smell.i miss ur kiss.i miss your love..
i miss u telling me that u love me
and

i miss telling you that i love you the most..






do u miss me boy.

Labels: love hurts.

Well,today after skul,i met tiara pok for a movie.Went to eat dinner first at banquet. I wanted to eat mee goreng but then............nvm. So i ate chicken cutlet noodle instead and it doesnt taste as good.Booo!
Finally i watched despicable me and its true,its damn hilarious!:) 2 thumbs up for this super cute movie!hehe.I felt so happy watching the movie.lols. Just like a kid.:)

After which we chilled at a certain place awhile.Had some random and sensible talks. Both of us weren't feeling good at all..but i know we both are common in many ways so i felt comfortable and happy i have someone to talk to..and Im sorry i actually broke down, kinda in a sudden. i cant control myself at times..i think its ur first time seeing me cry like dat.LoL.
Thank god theres Bob Marley.hahah.
Take care yaya pok...and do whatever u think is right k pok.

Bye bye...i wanna sleep.Tomoro start at 9 .Sian..

i realised ive been updating my blog very regularly.
cos i need to spill things out.its not as if i have someone around me all the time for me to express my feelings..
and i dont think i can hold things back for long right now.

currently im in school.such a fucking boring place to be in..
and i suddenly remembered i had an eerie short nightmare yesterday night.i remembered getting so scared the moment i woke up.its like as though the nightmare was real.
i dreamed of a woman wearing a long white cloth standing at a corner.and she suddenly turned her head to face me. and lucky for me,she wasnt ugly or anything but her fucking scary eyes scared the shit out of me.the eyes were so dark and piercing.and the worst part was it actually repeated twice,the moment she turned towards me,and it kinda like zoomed in for the second time so i can really see her motherfucking scary eyes. And i just woke up right after that moment and didnt even want to move a muscle.my room is already so dark with a tiny green lamp at the corner,making the place look even scarier. zzzzz.
i dunnoe man,lately ive been having stupid and scary dreams..
the other dreamt i had was worse. i dreamt i was in kl (of all places) and there was tsunami..and i can really feel the fear of getting drowned and dying when the water gushed in the building i was in.and i could feel the pain and sadness of losing my loved ones,.and the ironic part was,,it repeated again,,twice. the first time after i dreamt of it i thought i was already awake,well i was 'awake' in my dreams...its like the final destination movie,,and i started telling all my families and cousins that i was having a dejavu,,and the tsunami came again. I woke up when i started to feel the fear and sadness once again...Geesh.It was actually very creepy and scary sa..like wtf...i hope im not having this kind of nightmares anymore:(:(..

anws i wanna watch despicable me,predators,9 temples,the crazies and so on.
so much movies to watch. i hope i have company..




if only u still wanna fly kite with me:(

18 days passed..and im still like this.
never been better.


i realised if i stop myself from crying and pretending to be ok,things just gets worst.
haiz.

my idiotic cousin made me teared at work.sucker.
stop singing that song anymore lah can...
go sing pitbull song better.

anw i rode a bus back home after work and one minah rep look a like sat infront of me..
i dun favour them those kind of girls. but i felt sorry for her when she started crying.she looked so helpless..i think shes having a fight or something..
i realised we may look different from the outside,but it always come to the same thing.
We all still cry when things get ugly.
it was a pretty sad journey home..

and ive been listening to the song he likes.cos i miss him every single day.
and it is true.
his skin makes me cry..


and im sorry peepz,don expect me to publish happy post in times like this..
maybe one day..
when my heart beats once again.

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Give my all for your love
Tonight

Labels: emo

just came back from kl trip.
it was just pretty okay there.no excitement or anything.
went abit of shopping and ate alot too.
till i had food poisoning becos of the stupid oysters.haiz..
vomitted like nobody's business.
i swear i wont eat oysters again.

im still feeling fatigue and super lazy to update pics........

WC is over.so sad. Spain won by default.zzz.



I told myself to get distracted during the hols.
but sadly i just cant.he is still on my mind all the time:(
i still love him
tell me how am i suppose to move on?:(

Off to KL later on. Wont be back till monday. I hope i will have a splendid time there shopping and eating.

its a good opportunity for me to distract myself from all this ...

dont miss me ppl.lol.


i still miss you so much...

As much as i hate this part , i still need to let it go.
I forgave. Its the first step for me to move on.
Though the pain still lies within me, i know it will heal someday.
If it doesnt belong to me,i have to give it back no matter how difficult it can be.
I was given love,your love . But it was just temporary.
I love, i smile,i dream, i cry cos you exist.
Now when you arent here like before,i will cherish those great moments we shared.And like you said, learnt from all the mistakes..

Im thankful for what i had. Thankful to get to know you. Thankful for your love and the joy u had given me. I will not forget either. I will just miss you when times i think about our journey.
You have so much ambitions in you,I can see that and I wish you for the best and your happiness too Harris........

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away



Just came back from dinner.
Soccer starting soon. Im pretty excited..I hope Germany made it.But i had a bad feeling Argentina is gonna win.lols....


I felt so paranoid yst night.I was being little too selfish with certain people.Sorry guys.
And my post yst was abit..crazy.and maybe unfair?

I have been thinking alot.
And theres no use of me feeling so deprived all the time.
Everything happens for a reason.
Im no perfect. Im sorry if i cant make u happy.
One day you will find your perfect girl and you will be happier.
One day i will find my perfect guy and i will be happier.
Just hope you will forgive all my mistakes towards you.

but my main concern is that i hope we will not be a total stranger..i would never want that.you had been part of my life and i think there is no reason for it..

till then,you take care of urself,friend.

i have flaws.im imperfect.
But i think all the hardship and sacrifices i did just for you is worth much more than the way you bid your last sudden goodbye.
You didnt even want to call me to explain to me your sudden ignorance towards me until i read the blog:(
I dont think i ever deserve the ignorance.Didnt reply my messages and calls.Kept me thinking so hard and it really disheartens me.Cos the next thing i knew,you said your last goodbye.That what really hurts me the most.

letting you go is the last thing i would want to do.and its never easy for me.only god knows the pain i felt.Only He knows how much i really love you.

i put so much faith in the rs.but what can i really do.
whats love without patience
maybe for u its not the worth to wait for me...or maybe never was.

only He knows how much pain i have to suffer and the whole lot of sacrifices i made just to be with you.i never gave up on u. i accepted for who u are,ur flaws and knots.ive never complained of who u really are.i accepted u.haiz.i don see a good damn point to state all this.i dun think u would understand it too..

sometimes im sick and tired of hearing u saying that u deserve better.every single time u said that,i tried again but in the end its still the same whole you-deserve-better.

but really,when i think about it.i honestly felt that im the one who deserves better. but ive never complaint about it didnt i. you are right yourself,i too just wished u could have treated me better.
maybe u are just saying this just for the sake of saying. and if it is,maybe one day and i hope you will really realise it even if it takes u 10 years down the road..

i have always love you more den you love me:(


ANWS,FUCK CRAMPS.........Im so fed up with myself and relationships.be it with ur loved ones or friends or whatever stupid knots.fml,seriously. im getting so pissed and frustrated typing this out. Give me an alive chicken and i will break the birds neck.!!cb la.why woman must have Cramps!!!




i feel so eager to go to school today until i was in the bus.
i dunnoe why but i smelt something so familiar.Too familiar indeed.

It just makes me wanna go back home,lock myself in my room,wrap myself under my blanket, off the lights and sleep due to exhaustion of crying:(




im so wounded :(
cant you see?

It's over. He's gone.

Why do we have to part while
the love is still there?
Why do we have to suffer?
Why do we have to cry when
somebody bids goodbye?
Why do beginnings have an end?
Why do we have to meet
only to lose in the end?

There are questions left unanswered,
words left unsaid, letters left unread,
poems left undone, songs left unsung,
love left unexpressed,
promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,
one of the hardest things to do
is saying goodbye and letting go.
It is as hard as breaking a crystal
because you'll never know when you
will be able to pick up the pieces again.
More often than not, they who go,
feel not the pain of parting:
it is they who stay behind that suffer,
because they are left
with memories of a love
that was meant to be,
a love that was.

At the beginning and at the end
of a relationship,
we are embarrassed to find ourselves alone.
Unfair as it may seem,
but that's the way love goes.
That's the drama, the bittersweet
and the risk of falling in love.
After all, nothing is constant but change.
Everything will eventually come to its end
without us knowing when,
without us knowing how,
without us even knowing why.
And we must forget not because we want to
but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come
not as a single spy but in millions.
It seems that everywhere i go,
everything i do,
every song i hear,
every turn of my head,
every move of my body,
every beat of my heart,
every blink of my eye and every breath
i take always reminds me of him.
It's like a stab of a knife,
a torture in the night.
Funny how the whole world
becomes depopulated
when only one person is missing.
Just imagine,
there are billion people on earth
and yet it seems i feel lonely
and empty without the other.

I don't know if it's worth calling an art,
but letting go entails
special skills sparkled
with a considerable space and time.
Time heals all wounds but it takes
a little push on our part.
Acceptance plays a part.
Not all love stories end with
"...and they live happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of
circumstances beyond our control.
We have to suffer if it would
mean happiness for others.
We have to cry to
temporarily let go of the pains.
Every beginning has its end
like every dawn has its dusk.
It's something we can't control,
something we had to live up.

It's over.
He's gone. But life has to go on.
Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.
There will always be a place and time
where questions will be answered,
words will be spoken,
letters will be read,
poems will be recited in the night,
songs will be sung in harmony,
love will be expressed in solitude and
promises will be fulfilled.
Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

This poem speaks it all.

Labels: the art of letting go:(

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