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Hi I'm Lina, 22 years old. I love adventure and awesome jackets.
I love my strawberries.
Likes and interests.
Like i said,i love adventure.Would love to see the whole universe if God permits me.
Im a simple girl. Simple sense of style and choose to live in a simple life.
i hate waking up on sundays. it will just remind me of something. its just the day i last heard his voice. and i just don wanna get up from bed and i wished i had said something more wondered if it would make a difference.
i swear to god this week has been extra shitty for me.when i say extra shitty i really mean EXTRA SHITTY. i just really feel that god is trying to test me.
not gonna post what had happened to me for the past few days. Especially on Wednesday. its really unbelievable i started to laugh at first and den i cried like an effing pussy.
But,on a lighter note.Most of the problems are solved. im not worrying about anything much any longer and i hope it will stay this way and gets better in the future.
I would want to thank most of my colleagues for cheering me up and making me believe again that everythings gonna be fine. And yes, i need to improve my fuck up system badly to level 8! as said by Barneyhs..
Anws,i really hate it when im being nice to ppl cos i truthfully care for them,but they just dont see it that way, thinking i have some other reasons for it. this shit happened a couple of times to me. argghh.betul menyakitkan hati sak:'(
and im sorry to those who gets annoyed or angry cos im being unreasonable for tt moment.i dont think when im pissed and disappointed,i said what i wanna say.my words may be unfair.therefore,im sorry..
i wanna sleep soon.im tired of thinking and miserable-ing my life.i pray for a happier day tomoro.and also to those who arent in their best moments lately..
im 20.im still young.im not wise but im learning.ive not seen the rest of the world.ive felt hardship and pain but i know mine is nothing compared to those who suffers more than i do.i hate to complain when i thought im feeling miserable,cos i know theres others out there who are facing more difficulties than me.But sometimes we have to let things out to make ourselves feel better. i cry easily.i cry all the time when no one is around.i cry when im scared of the future.i cry when i feel no one listens or understands me.i cry the thought of losing someone i love and care.i cry when i miss someone.i cry when i make someone angry or upset.i cry all the time but most people won't see me cry. i try hard not to show them. Cos i don't wanna reveal the softer side of me.
And hell yeah i do get piss off.Who doesnt. I may treat unfairly to certain people.i may be impolite.some say i seem rude when i talk. others say i look arrogant,i dont smile and look unfriendly. i can be expressionless . i dont show emotions. im quite and im reserve. i know some guys who are even scared to talk to me cos im scary.lol.
well,it will take sometime before i get use to new people around me.i dont instantly click to certain people. i need to feel comfortable. and when i really do, i know im nt tt bad afterall.
I know what i wanna be in the future.i know what i wanna do.im setting my own set of goals and rules. i want to be somebody who earns respect from people. So i gotta work and strive for it. i wanna be better than my parents. i wanna prove to them that i can do something more than what they expect from me.i wanna make them proud. i just wanna be successful in my life.
one day,i wanna do voluntary work abroad. i wanna give back to those less fortunate out there who deserves so much better in life. i feel sad when i look at their living conditions.i am so god damn fortunate and sometimes ,sadly,i take advantage of it.i dream of putting a smile on their faces. i know the feeling will be just amazingly priceless:)
And i wanna get married and have children. i think i wanna have 4 children the very most.haha. i wanna have a happy and loving family who can communicate and understand each other. i wanna be a great mom and a great wife..i know i will.
and also,i wanna do this at least once in my lifetime:(for now) bungee jump sky dive go to an awesone concert back-packing visit the 7 wonders of the world visit maldives island visit wildlife africa bake my own cake for someone try to make pottery on my own scuba diving hug a cute monkey and let the baby monkey drink milk from a bottle. ride a horse,ride a camel,swim with dolphins,hold a new born chick on my palm,take a picture with a kitten close to my face.:)
yea.so much to do.theres a million things to do in life.
whatever tt is happening to my life right now, i learnt who my real friends are.really. i thank nadz for being the truest and thanks a million for being there when i need her all the time.
and of course, fcuk u very much to certain someone who used to be close. but its all just lies. thanks for showing the real U. i never regretted whatever i did 3 years back. U still havent change a single bit.. sucha pity.
Anws, im getting bored of my life now. I need a plan. I need to do something more exciting. anybody have any ideas for me?
and PLS eh..dont ask me to find guys..stop it eh korang2 yg tertentu..haha.
arghh.i wished shits didnt happen. god pls show me wt to do:(
i seriously detest that girl.i dunnoe why. she fucking shit took it all away. young people.fcuk them. though i knew this would happen. i knew him well enough than u fcuking bitches do. everytime i think about it,tt bitch will appear in my thoughts she made things more shittier than ever. fucking hate her. im just being honest.
Its so rare being home alone on Fridays. Somehow the feeling is just perfect. I dont have to hear my mom nagging to clean the house and do house chores. I dont have to see my sister studying all the time.zz. And also, my dad. I dont have to feel guilty for ignoring him.. i wish i can spend more time alone at home. so then i can bring boys home.LOL..ok not..
Anws,cant believe my mom is Graduating. She completed her diploma in human resource management... I haven even get my certs yet! boo. i think my sister is gonna grow up and be like her.Still wanna study though hair is turning grey and white.. and i think i need to be like them.lololol. No way sia! i hate studying!.
Poor guy A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed.
He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife:
"Listen, this guy's an escaped convict, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you."
To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He wwas whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"
Anyhoos,watched Salt with nurul yesterday.Its an awesome movie.I love Angelina in that movie.Such a strong woman... I wanna act in a show like her.HAHA.
Den we played bowling and pool. Im so clumsy in bowling.Basket nurul laughed at me like shit.LOL. but nvm..got lorry got bus.:)
Anywayyyyss,,,
Crying doesn't indicate you are weak.Since birth, it has always been a sign that you're alive. YO!
perceive tightness of chess,loss of apetite,insomnia,anger,shock,nostalgia,apathy,feelings of loneliness,feelings of hopelessness n despair,loss of self-esteem,nausea,fatigue,the thousand-yard stare,constant of frequent crying,the feeling of complete emptiness.
Symptoms of a broken heart.
sadly, i fit in all the criterias.
just cant bare the thought of him with her. it stabs me in the heart.
1st of all,apparently theres certain someone out there who obviously has certain issues with their bored and miserable life.. She hates seeing someone else being more happier .And when she finds out the other fall, she happily laughs and 'celebrate' this moment..
Girl oh girl. Didnt know you are just someone who is full of pretense. Seriously,how stupid can you be. How long you wanna hide from me. And oh,ive read all ur posts in your blog.Didnt know you are so envy of me before this. Just because I had a relationship far more longer than you think. Just because u THINK i am a spoil brat rich kid. seriously. WTF. Thats so sad of you. Obviously uve been having troubled relationships all this while.Of course u get jealous of me. Cos you dont know what LOVE is. You are the kind who just plays around with other people's heart. And u leave before they find out the REAL you. And i come from a family who DO NOT treat me like a spoil brat rich kid. I,MYSELF find my own ways to earn money . Cos my parents DO NOT LIKE their children to make it a habit to ask money from them. And of course, I USE MY OWN HARD EARN MONEY to get my own car license and certain things which u THINK my parents had spent on me.
Its funny how you can pretend to be nice and care about me. Saying u'll be by my side when im down, in times like this. Cos u actually cant accept the fact that ive told u once that ur just a heartbreaker to others,You pretend. You see me fall now girl,but you wait till i rise again. And when its your turn to feel what im feeling, when its your turn to feel PAIN, you'll start to believe things that you never believed in. You'll crawl so hard to see light again. And it will be my turn to laugh at your misery, you motherfucker Bitch!
Fuck off from my personal life. Just fuck off from my life.
my nights are never the same without u. while u sleep n in love. i stare at the space above. sadness fill my nights. tears i have to wipe. pain i need to bare. Cos u r are not there. :(
im not in a great mood. maybe because the woman's issue is coming. but i know i feel so down lately. well,i know the reasons why.
sometimes i feel like running away so far.where no one knows me. i wanna be in the world of my own where no comparisons are made. sometimes i wish i could sleep for very long.And the time when i woke up, is the time i dont remember anything about the past..
sometimes i wish i can make everyone happy. even if i get nothing in return. so as long they are still there it would just be enough for me.
sometimes i wish im perfect. im not. But its okay Cos no one is..
those perfect moments. i wish i can have it again. can i...
been reading his past post. the times when we were starting to fall for each other.it brings smile to my face. but certain things said just went into the drain. i would bleed myself to be in that particular night again...
do u know,,everytime when u lie next to me,it was beautiful..
hello to myself. ive never felt this lonely for a long time. sometimes i feel dead. especially when im home. nothing to look forward to when i wake up. Maybe im hating the idea of having a 'windowless' room.. i miss the morning wind,which makes me feel like staying in bed,getting so comfortable. I miss the rays of lights too.. I always have to wake up in darkness, literally.oh wells....
i still feel so sad about everything.i remembered on the first night,i felt so extremely despair. i still cry today, i dunnoe when it will stop. i dreamt about him.everything seems so real. we were lovers.i felt him again,just like before.. i didnt wanna let go of u,, but i woke up,and everything is gone. and i was in the state of my first night again.. i wonder if u still hang our pic on your wall. do u cry when u look at it:(..
Well youre the closest thing I have To bring up in a conversation About a love that didnt last But I could never call you mine Cause I could never call myself yours And if we were really meant to be Well then we justify destiny Its not that our love died Just never really bloomed
Well I cant let go No, I cant let go of you Youre holding me back without even trying to. I cant let go I cant move on from the past Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.
i can be so weak at times. At times like this. When i can only think of him. In times like this,i wished i didnt let him go. I don't care whoever deserves better,i just want him. i just want u so fucking badly:'(
fuck break-ups. but it has never been this difficult and heartbreaking.
see.i know this would happen.once i tot im feeling better,i will go down ten feet under again:'(
i dunnoe why but i like august. every time it hits august,somehow i felt time flies so fast. Maybe its because national day is coming.lol.
Anyways,for those who cares,i think im feeling better. Im not perfectly fine,but i think im getting somewhere..
but if theres something i would like to say,that is, i just miss him terribly alot. i miss his love. sometimes i really wish he is there like before..i miss seeing him.i miss a whole lot of list about him:(..
/Tuesday, August 31, 2010
/ 2:18 AM 
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