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/Friday, August 27, 2010 / 12:31 AM

I'm Amalina.

im 20.im still young.im not wise but im learning.ive not seen the rest of the world.ive felt hardship and pain but i know mine is nothing compared to those who suffers more than i do.i hate to complain when i thought im feeling miserable,cos i know theres others out there who are facing more difficulties than me.But sometimes we have to let things out to make ourselves feel better.
i cry easily.i cry all the time when no one is around.i cry when im scared of the future.i cry when i feel no one listens or understands me.i cry the thought of losing someone i love and care.i cry when i miss someone.i cry when i make someone angry or upset.i cry all the time but most people won't see me cry. i try hard not to show them. Cos i don't wanna reveal the softer side of me.

And hell yeah i do get piss off.Who doesnt. I may treat unfairly to certain people.i may be impolite.some say i seem rude when i talk. others say i look arrogant,i dont smile and look unfriendly. i can be expressionless . i dont show emotions. im quite and im reserve. i know some guys who are even scared to talk to me cos im scary.lol.

well,it will take sometime before i get use to new people around me.i dont instantly click to certain people. i need to feel comfortable. and when i really do, i know im nt tt bad afterall.

I know what i wanna be in the future.i know what i wanna do.im setting my own set of goals and rules. i want to be somebody who earns respect from people. So i gotta work and strive for it. i wanna be better than my parents. i wanna prove to them that i can do something more than what they expect from me.i wanna make them proud. i just wanna be successful in my life.

one day,i wanna do voluntary work abroad. i wanna give back to those less fortunate out there who deserves so much better in life. i feel sad when i look at their living conditions.i am so god damn fortunate and sometimes ,sadly,i take advantage of it.i dream of putting a smile on their faces. i know the feeling will be just amazingly priceless:)

And i wanna get married and have children. i think i wanna have 4 children the very most.haha.
i wanna have a happy and loving family who can communicate and understand each other. i wanna be a great mom and a great wife..i know i will.

and also,i wanna do this at least once in my lifetime:(for now)
bungee jump
sky dive
go to an awesone concert
back-packing
visit the 7 wonders of the world
visit maldives island
visit wildlife africa
bake my own cake for someone
try to make pottery on my own
scuba diving
hug a cute monkey and let the baby monkey drink milk from a bottle.
ride a horse,ride a camel,swim with dolphins,hold a new born chick on my palm,take a picture with a kitten close to my face.:)

yea.so much to do.theres a million things to do in life.